Hadi came to Scotland in 2012. His asylum claim has been refused 3 times, but the Home Office has also deemed his home country too unsafe for him to take “voluntary” return. Stuck in limbo, Hadi is struggling to cope.

When I came to this country, I was very happy. I was looking forward to studying, to more opportunities, to peace.

Then my asylum claim was refused, and then later my fresh claim. I was shocked. One night I was in the gym, I went home and my door was locked. Serco had taken everything away. I didn’t know where to go, I didn’t have anywhere to sleep. I slept in a garden, I’ll never forget that.

Now, after 7 years, another fresh claim has been refused, they are threatening to kick me out of my accommodation, my support has been stopped. You’re not allowed to work. No accommodation. Everywhere you go the door is shut. The light became a dark room.

How many years of my life have been wasted? When I came here I went to college, I took exams, I was passing. I’m happy to learn, to meet new people. I thought that I would be educated, I would be in a good position. Then they kicked me out of the college because my claim was rejected.

That shut me down. I then applied to return back home but the Home Office said no to that too…

How can I survive? There’s nothing anyone can do. I’m in a very very very deep hole and I can’t get out. I can’t remember what I did yesterday. I can’t sleep. Always thinking, thinking, thinking.

But I am still alive. There are many people in worse situations than me. How we survive, nobody knows.

Author: Faris